You've noticed a pattern in yourself. When you're really you — saying what you think, liking what you like, being a bit weird — you feel free, but you don't always fit in. And when you fit in — going along, matching the group, smoothing yourself down — you belong, but you don't feel free. It's like there's a dial, and you can't have both ends at once. Turn it toward "be yourself" and you risk standing alone. Turn it toward "belong" and you risk disappearing into the group. Lately you keep landing on the belonging end, because being alone is scary. But you're starting to wonder if you've turned the dial too far — and lost yourself somewhere in the fitting in.